Your daily dose of randomness

OK I love being hyper and random WAY too much, and the following excerpts from my mountains of chat logs kind of show that, I know being hyper and random is so hard and yes I am awesome, or I is teh pwnzorz.


Nicholai's member is sucked by Esmiel Posthorn.
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 20% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 30% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 40% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 50% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **You are no longer a virgin!
Nicholai cries out in the grip of a powerful orgasm!
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 60% of normal.
Nicholai's member is sucked by Esmiel Posthorn.
You: I am no longer a virgin it said O:
Nicholai's member: **25 minute refractory period has begun.
Esmiel Posthorn looks up at you as he feels your member throb and your hot cum spurt into his mouth. He swallows as much as he can, gagging slightly before taking it out and licking it clean
Nicholai's member is licked by Esmiel Posthorn.
You: wth I can hide my balls D:
Esmiel Posthorn: :S
Esmiel Posthorn: why would anyone do that
Esmiel Posthorn: lol
You: hermaphrodite
You: and it said I wasnt a virgin anymore
You: one second lemme show you
Esmiel Posthorn: lol. ok
You: [12:50] Nicholai's member: **You are no longer a virgin!
Esmiel Posthorn: :O news to me
You: LOL
Nicholai is breathing a little heavily.
You: omg that was not 30 minutes
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 50% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **Your arousal speed is now 40% of normal.
Nicholai's member: **Your genitals are now numb.
Esmiel Posthorn: no shit? really?

Ramsus Wake: Xerxes.. I should have known.
Ramsus Wake readies his spear and assumes a fighting position, "GIVE TO THEM NOTHING. TAKE FROM THEM.. EVERYTHING!"
You: are you ok...
Ramsus Wake: TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!
You: ummm..eshy he is scaring me...
Esmie's Lips whispers: Ramsus Wake grabs a convenient ball and stuffs it into Esmiel's mouth, gagging him effectively.
Esmiel Posthorn: oh funny :)
You: o.O
Nicholai Heita squeek
Nicholai Heita squeeks!
Ramsus Wake: The world will know.. that a free, sexy man stood before tyrants.
Esmiel Posthorn: free, sexy tyrants, none the less
You: is this drin...cause if it is this is lame...
Ramsus Wake: Drin?
Ramsus Wake: THIS IS SPARTA!!!
You: ok not him..
You: take your spartan ass and go kill me some persians...-.o
Esmiel Posthorn: lol take your sparta crap somewhere else :)
Ramsus Wake: As you command!
Ramsus Wake: HOO-RAH!
Ramsus Wake: HOO-RAH!
You: ok then....
Esmiel Posthorn: psycho
Esmiel Posthorn: lol
You: guess they have secondlife in the pysch ward now
You: omg I still hear him
Esmiel Posthorn: urgh.
You: omg he is flying
Esmiel Posthorn: crazy fucker. i dont wanna have to ban him :/
Esmiel Posthorn: oops wrong button :/
You: ow...
Esmiel Posthorn: lol
Esmiel Posthorn: sorry :(
Esmiel Posthorn kisses your cheek and makes it all better
Nicholai Heita purrrs
You: uh oh he is back...
Esmiel Posthorn: ummm thats not him
You: who is it a notecard is in the way
Esmiel Posthorn: ion, but he's gone now

You: oh shut up could you build this thing?
Esmiel Posthorn: its a beautiful arch way
Esmiel Posthorn: no, i couldnt
You: so keep the peanut gallery comments to yourself D:
You: I love you :P
Esmiel Posthorn: I love you too. whats a peanut gallery?
Esmiel Posthorn: :D
You: the kids at the back of the class
You: lol
Esmiel Posthorn: hmmm. i see
Esmiel Posthorn: thats the bit above the door, right? lol
You: yes
Esmiel Posthorn: knew it! not such a dunce after all

You: cuz I is a gewd speeler and I is a good scriptor
Esmiel Posthorn: mmmhmmm. a gewd speeler liek em uhu?
Esmiel Posthorn: :D
You: yeeesh
You: we iz gewd speelers
Esmiel Posthorn: yep we iz
Esmiel Posthorn: enough now
Esmiel Posthorn: lol
You: what iz ladee shurts

RaffleTron 4n1: HURRY! Hourly Drawing Starting Soon! Get Your Entries In NOW!
You: LOL
You: :P
You: where be this fabled raffletron?

You: hey wth how did I get...nevermind
RaffleTron 4n1: Received *1* Entries From Nicholai Heita For The Hourly Drawing!
You: YAY I LIKE PENIS!
Esmiel Posthorn: wow. imagine paying 10L and getting back 17,680 O.o
You: holy crap that would rock
You: imagine a yearly drawing
You: omg
Esmiel Posthorn: >.<

You: yeah hump me eshy...LOL

Esmiel Posthorn: hmmm... up to you...
Esmiel Posthorn: :P
You: WOOOOOOOOO Cmon WE'ER STREAKIN
Bound in Red Loin Cloth (Long): Your Item has been removed!
Raffle Ball 2.5(by Raidensoft): Atleast 3 participants are needed to find a winner! Currently there are only 0.
You: oh stfu

You: lookies its a lost cock
You: lol
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
You: hey little guy where is your home?
Esmiel Posthorn: ROFL
Esmiel Posthorn's cock points to Nicholai's butt
Esmiel Posthorn: haha :P
You: omg I was gonna say that LOL
You: we are like psychic
You: ohhhhh
You: yeah you better texture the cock or else its gonna be white to me until the lindens get to my support request ticket

You: omg you chopped it off NOOOO
You: NOOOOO!
Esmiel Posthorn: freeze it solid.. it will still be usable
You: as a dildo gosh how thoughtful
Esmiel Posthorn: lol better than nothing
You: oh jeeze major nosebleed brb
Esmiel Posthorn: :( try not picking it :P
You: I dont pick my nose silly that is disgusting
Esmiel Posthorn: lol i do sometimes
Esmiel Posthorn: hehe
You: EEEEWWW
You: wash your hands!
Raffle Ball 2.5(by Raidensoft): Atleast 3 participants are needed to find a winner! Currently there are only 0.
You: I dont boogers in my ass...-.-
You: want*
You: oh did I turn you on love?
You: :P
Esmiel Posthorn: no, the cock ring did lol
You: ; ;
Esmiel Posthorn: hmmm does that look ok?
You: mnnnn

Being smooth can get annoying

OK so all my friends on SL and RL know that I love to have no body hair, hence putting up with the pain of getting waxed >.<, well apparently my most recent visit didn't get everything, I discovered they didn't get everything on my butt (and yes I do inspect my entire body in the mirror, I am very obsessed with my skin lol)
So I got to experience the joys of taking out the trusty old razor and getting to glide a blade along the most sensitive areas of my body just because I enjoy the possibility of slicing myself a new hole. Now normally nothing of that sort happens, but this time, someone slammed on the bathroom door just as I was placing the razor against the VERY sensitive skin running from under my gonads to my hole, and I sliced a nice huge gash there letting out the most wonderful ear-piercing scream, and I now get to walk around with a huge band-aid on my ass, totally ruining my planned surprise for Eshy this weekend D:
So children what did we learn today? We learned that when you are going to shave very sensitive parts of your body you should travel somewhere where you have no contact with another being, or just suck it up and pay for the beautician to get the rest of the missed hairs....

Hunter RP

[12:47] Esmiel Posthorn laughs and shouts after you "See how far you can get..."
[12:48] Nicholai Heita jumps through the thick jungle foliage, climbing up the tall trees and covering himself from sight, looking down
[12:50] Esmiel Posthorn sneaks through the jungle, watching the trees for signs of movement and damage to branches..
[12:51] Nicholai Heita climbs up and stays very still, hiding
[12:53] Esmiel Posthorn breathes in deeply, searching for your scent on the air.. he catches a tiny whiff of it and looks right up at you
[12:53] Nicholai Heita doesnt make a sound as he looks down at you, his entire body hidden in the shadows
[12:55] Esmiel Posthorn studies the tree and its surroundings, noting the height and the fact a tiny piece of your spearhead is glinting in the sun. He sits at the base of the tree and closes his eyes.
[12:56] Nicholai Heita launches from the tree top, dropping a few hollowed shells filled with powder, that create a screen of smoke as he flies into the water
[12:57] Esmiel Posthorn doesn't move and waits for the smoke to clear before rising and moving towards the edge of the water - he heard the splash..
[12:57] Nicholai Heita climbs onto a large abandoned boat before moving deep into its cavernous interior
[12:59] Esmiel Posthorn gazes at the boat and licks his dry lips softly, spying a flash of white on the deck as you move around. He walks slowly to the side of the water and climbs up onto the ship
[12:59] Nicholai Heita enters a cabin deep within the ship, and hides himself within it
[13:00] Esmiel Posthorn systematically searches the areas of the ship, from the front heading towards the back, continually sniffing for a trace of your sweet scent
[13:01] Nicholai Heita stays silent and still not making a movement or sound
[13:03] Esmiel Posthorn mutters under his breath, his white teeth flashing in the darkness "I cant see you or hear you nor feel you, prey.. but I can smell you and soon I will taste you.." and he chuckles softly as he climbs up towards the last room on the ship
[13:04] Nicholai Heita holds his breath as he hears you enter the room
[13:05] Esmiel Posthorn strolls around, searching the far corner and looking under the couch and desk, his eye finally flicking over to the corner where you hide.
[13:06] Esmiel Posthorn laughs as he turns the corner and readies himself to pounce before stopping dead and staring at the empty corner. He curses and runs to the door at the back of the room.
[13:06] Nicholai Heita giggles softly then he claps his hand over his mouth
[13:07] Esmiel Posthorn closes the door and snaps his head back, his eyes searching the room carefully
[13:08] Nicholai Heita braces his weapon in front of himself, putting his weight down on his knees
[13:09] Esmiel Posthorn calls out softly "I know you're in here, little kitten.. come out and surrender and I wont have to come in there and get you..." his eyes slither around the room, his handsome face dark with frustration and concentrating..
[13:10] Nicholai Heita gives out a little mew and he comes charging out of the corner, his weapon flashing and held out in front of him
[13:11] Esmiel Posthorn just looks at you and sidesteps your charge at the last moment..
[13:12] Nicholai Heita falls over but puts out his spear end and use the momentum to swing him around and he thrusts his leg out knocking against your chest
[13:14] Esmiel Posthorn staggers back a little and hesitates with his hand on his sword hilt. He looks you up and down and then leaves his sword in its sheath as he jumps at you..
[13:15] Nicholai Heita puts the shaft of his spear in front of him, and he lets out a gasp as he is thrown back, and he bites his lip softly as he pushes on his spear trying to push you off of him
[13:17] Esmiel Posthorn grabs your wrists and holds them together in one hand, wrenching them from the shaft of the spear and holding them above your head. His other hand closes around your throat and he holds you firmly as he lifts you off the floor a little way, his eyes fixed on yours..
[13:18] Nicholai Heita eye's widen and he whimpers and gasps as he goes completely still
[13:19] Esmiel Posthorn licks your cheek wetly and then lowers you gently to the floor, his hand moving from your throat to the shaft of that annoying spear. He grips it and hurls the thing into the far corner behind him, his hand still holding your wrists together..
[13:20] Nicholai Heita blushes hotly and he lets out a soft mew as he feels you lick his cheek, and his eyes look away as his face turns a soft shade of pink
[13:22] Esmiel Posthorn pulls you closer into him and he grips one of your wrists in each of his hands and holds them by your sides as he examines your face, his breath hot on your cheeks
[13:23] Nicholai Heita's body trembles softly as he closes his eyes, his cheeks turning redder as he feels your hot breath on his face..
[13:25] Esmiel Posthorn presses his lips to your ear and whispers "Do not be afraid.. you belong to me now, and I will not hurt you..". He rubs his nose against yours softly as he looks into your eyes, his hands relaxing their grip on your wrists and moving towards your waist..
[13:27] Nicholai Heita lets out a soft mew as he feels your battle-hardened hands run down his soft smooth skin, the callouses on your hands grazing the senstive flesh on his waist
[13:29] Esmiel Posthorn grips your hips gently as he pulls your body against his, and he moves his lips to your neck, grazing his teeth lightly across the surface of your shoulder and running his tongue up your throat, leaving a warm, wet trail..
[13:30] Nicholai Heita whimpers and purrs softly, his eyes closing as his supple pink lips part, his sweet breath panting softly as he feels his body respond to your erotic touches
[13:32] Esmiel Posthorn pushes you against the wall, his weight pressing into you as he runs his tongue over your chin and up your cheek, nibbling your ears gently, his hands slipping behind you, moving downwards slowly..
[13:35] Nicholai Heita purrs softly as he trembles against you softly, submitting to your touches instinctively, his body yours to enjoy...
[13:37] Esmiel Posthorn unbuckles his sword belt and places it to one side, the huge silver blade gleaming in the thin streams of sunlight filtering through the cracked planks of the ship. He runs his tongue across your lips, slowly parting them as he kisses you passionately
[13:38] Nicholai Heita lets out soft moan, his body shuddering as he opens his mouth more, your tongue caressing and rubbing his. His soft cheek begin to flush a soft rosey color
[13:40] Esmiel Posthorn slides his hands down your back, under your silks, grabbing your soft warm buttocks in his palms, massaging and spreading them gently
[13:41] Nicholai Heita arches his back, his body pressing into yours as a quiver passes through his body, his soft sweet voice mewing softly in pleasure, your very touch sending shivers through his body
[13:43] Esmiel Posthorn pulls the bracelets from your arms and unfastens your silks, letting them drop to the ground. He licks your cheek wetly as he slips off his own bracelets and chest piece
[13:45] Nicholai Heita blushes hotly as the only thing keeping you from his naked flesh is a tiny piece of white animal hide, and he wraps his arms around your shoulders gently...
[13:46] Esmiel Posthorn rips off the animal hide and runs his fingertips over your member, holding it in his hand as he reaches around behind you and slides his finger down your crack..
[13:48] Nicholai Heita presses his head in the crook of your neck and mews loudly in pleasure as he feels your rough hands grasp his hard and sensitive member, and his hips shudder as he feels your finger slip between his buttocks
[13:50] Esmiel Posthorn rubs his fingertip on your entrance, firmly pushing against the slight resistance and he works your rim open gently and slides the fingertip inside..
[13:51] Nicholai Heita cries out softly and he grips your back more, as his body trembles, his member twitching and throbbing as he feels you slide your finger deeper into him
[13:53] Esmiel Posthorn gently massages your gland with the tip of his finger as he jacks your cock roughly. He runs his lips and tongue across your shoulders and chest, kissing and licking every inch
[13:54] Nicholai Heita's nails gently rake up and down your back as he lets out gasping mews, his member dripping his precious pre as he moves his hips in sync with your finger
[13:57] Esmiel Posthorn kisses your lips softly and he lets go of your member, unfastening his silks and releasing his large, hardening member. He pulls his finger from your butt and kisses your lips again, putting his hands on your shoulders and gently pressing you downwards until you rest on your knees, his member pressing against your lips..
[13:58] Nicholai Heita whimpers softly as he parts his lips, his warm wet tongue darting out and carefully pressing against the head of your member, and he gently laps at it, rolling his tongue around in circle, flicking the tip of his tongue under your foreskin every so often...
[14:00] Esmiel Posthorn groans softly as his fingers run backwards through your hair..
[14:02] Nicholai Heita slowly takes the tip of your member into his mouth, pressing and rubbing his tongue on your shaft as it slides deeper into his mouth, and he pulls it out till just the tip is inside his mouth, and he flicks his tongue against it, lapping at your slit
[14:04] Esmiel Posthorn gently puts his hands under your shoulders and lifts you back to your feet, kissing your lips as he does so. He turns you round and gets on his knees, licking a finger and sliding it deep into your entrance
[14:05] Nicholai Heita closes his eyes and arches his head back, letting out a crying mew as he feels your finger slip deep inside him...
[14:06] Esmiel Posthorn withdraws his finger and replaces it with his tongue, thrusting it deep into you before pulling it back slightly and licking around your rim, spreading your cheeks with his hands
[14:07] Nicholai Heita bites his lower lip gently to stifle his cries as he whimpers softly, his member throbbing as he feels your teasing tongue lapping at his sweet walls
[14:08] Esmiel Posthorn slides two wet fingers into you as he grazes his teeth over the soft flesh of your buttocks, kissing and licking them as he thrusts the fingers deep into you
[14:09] Nicholai Heita's eyes shoot open as he lets out a silent cry, feeling your fingers stretching him, pressing against his gland as his body trembles and shudders
[14:10] Esmiel Posthorn moves the fingers about inside you, massaging your gland as he reaches under you and strokes your balls teasingly with his fingertips
[14:10] Nicholai Heita whimpers softly, saying in his soft sweet voice, trembling and stuttering, "S...stop....teasiing.."
[14:12] Esmiel Posthorn smiles and runs his tongue up your crack, right up your spine and the back of your neck as he stands, and he grips your hips with his hands, spreading your buttocks as he rubs the dripping head of his cock up and down your crack
[14:13] Nicholai Heita moans and he moves his head back against your shoulder, looking up at you as he pants softly, feeling your member gently pressing into his entrance, and he bites his lip softly
[14:16] Esmiel Posthorn leans down and kisses your lips softly as he slides the tip of his cock inside your tight, wet entrance, the ring stretching around his shaft as he slowly slides more and more into you..
[14:17] Nicholai Heita cries out as he feels your entire length inside him, filling him with a pleasurable warmth, and he pants more as he feels you begin to thrust in and out of him
[14:18] Esmiel Posthorn grips your hips with his hands and he pulls your body back onto his cock as he thrusts forwards, sending the head deep into you, repeatedly hitting your gland, slowly at first then faster and harder..
[14:19] Nicholai Heita bites his lower lip as he lets out crying mews each time you hit his gland, and he says gasping for breath, "I...am..going...t.."
[14:21] Esmiel Posthorn puts one hand on your shoulder, pulling your body back against his, his chest pressed against your back, his arm wrapping around you as he thrusts harder and harder, his body tense and glistening as he feels your walls begin to grip him tighter..
[14:22] Nicholai Heita cries out, mewing and gasping as he cannot take it anymore, and his body stiffens as his walls grip you tightly, his member shooting his hot seed against the wall as his body trembles and shudders
[14:23] Nicholai Heita: aghhhnnn...mnn!
[14:25] Esmiel Posthorn kisses the back of your neck and thrusts a few more times before his body shudders and his hands grip you tightly as he cums, his cock pumping his warm seed deep into you. He slips out of you and some spurts onto your back and legs, covering your butt in sticky white seed..
[14:27] Nicholai Heita mews and whimpers softly as he feels your seed fill him, and then he gasps as he feels your warm cum drip down his back, legs and buttocks....
[14:29] Esmiel Posthorn spins you around and kisses your lips passionately and he looks deep into your eyes and smiles.. "Hmm.. you will make a good pet.." he whispers..
[14:29] Nicholai Heita looks down and blushes deeply

Yah that was what we got up to last night. I found it to be one of the most exciting and intense RP sessions we've had for a while and the kinda powerful, dominant side of me came through (wasn't really aware I had one...) and enjoyed himself thoroughly ;D

Yay Randomness!

Esmiel Posthorn: not sure if they will allow stripper poles under expenses, but they want me to hold a huge party here and we can use it in that too :P
You: awesome

Esmiel Posthorn sighs "Someones been signing my email up for more junk stuff.. " -.-
You: awww come get dressed and play :P
Esmiel Posthorn: I am gonna rip their eyes out through their ass as soon as i can prove who it is
You: O.o
You: ouch

Esmiel Posthorn: ((ok lets cut down on the talk LOL))
You: ((well I gotta take the dog out D:))
Esmiel Posthorn: screw it then LOL *cums in your ass*
You: LOL
You: ohhh yes
You: ROFL
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
You: *ummmm..cums?*

You: kick the dog if you want she ruined it for you
Esmiel Posthorn: nah its ok
Esmiel Posthorn: I'll ruin it for her next time
Esmiel Posthorn: :P

Esmiel Posthorn: *nudge* hello? lol
You: ?
You: okies
Esmiel Posthorn: lol ok
You: sorry was reading instructions
Esmiel Posthorn: psssh why
You: dont wanna die

You: what are you doing down there
Esmiel Posthorn: looking up your silks
You: O>o
You: HEY!
Esmiel Posthorn: :P
Esmiel Posthorn: bite me
Esmiel Posthorn: :x

Esmiel Posthorn: we just passed ihm
You: LOL
Esmiel Posthorn: he was falling to his death! LOL
You: Hoooo!
You: Hoooo!
Esmiel Posthorn: I wanna eat your Hoooo!
You: your a Hoooo!
You: LOL
Esmiel Posthorn: kiss my Hoooo!
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
You: be my Hoooo!
Esmiel Posthorn: i am your Hoooo!
You: LOL

Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
You: who are you to call my bf a bitch you cock-sucking 5 dollar whore
You: see I can cuss good but I dont cause it ruins my innocent image
You: :P

More Random Stuff

In a effort to cheer myself up after the depressing day I had today, I am going through my huge folders of chat logs, and I think I am going to make random chat log stuff a daily thing on the blog :D

Gabe Semyorka: did you like my business suit?
You: eshy is still smoozing

Esmiel Posthorn: jeeze dont be so heterophobic guys
Gabe Semyorka: lol
You: take your hetero stuff somewhere else
You: well eshy would you want to see that at a gay club
You: they are taking everything over

You: time to take my pink thong wearing butt to the shower
Esmiel Posthorn shivers
You: take care all! see you later ^^

You: omg a storm of chiffon!
You: save me eshy!

Esmiel Posthorn: and i just noticed one of your ears is a slightly different colour to the other
You: oh thanks I forgot about that
You: just nag nag nag
You: D:
Esmiel Posthorn: oh sorry..
You: what about you love beautiful
You: look*
Esmiel Posthorn: well you will do once you followed my advice
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL

Esmiel Posthorn: you are beautiful, but i know you wanna be perfect

Esmiel Posthorn: what
You: you go whoomp
You: omg that lady has a huge ass....o.o
Esmiel Posthorn: well this is the place for huge asses it seems
You: really?
You: ack my hair is getting stuck in my headset D:
Esmiel Posthorn: >.<
You: yes my hair is kinda long

Esmiel Posthorn: lol there's the fashion
You: no that is called barfing on the shoes love

You: see this is why I have my own guys line
You: cause I cant go shopping for more exciting clothing without seeing pink everywhere
You: and looking like I have boobs...

You: cant catch me
Ezriel Angel Wings 4.0 whispers: Esmiel grabs Nicholai's wings roughly and holds them together.
Nicholai Heita squeeks!
Esmiel Posthorn: got you
You: uh oh
Esmiel's Dark Wings of Doom whispers: Esmiel spreads his wings in satisfaction.
You: look its gay porn!
Nicholai Heita points
Esmiel Posthorn: huh where?
You: I'll hide here

Crash and Burn

I so knew that today was gonna be a really horrible day, because starting out the day waking up from a dream about a demonic prince ravishing me and such really doesn't start me off on high note... Not that the part about him ravishing me wasn't good, it was, its just I was startled awake by world-ending forces or something being left out and they devoured my flesh while I was alive, yucky. But making breakfast this morning went well, since I had classes in the afternoon, I was able to sleep a bit later and make a good breakfast of bacon and eggs.
But the bacon was apparently spoiled or something really weird happened with my meds, because I had a splitting migraine all day, and my neck was stiff and sore, and I was literally blown off my feet when I looked into the mirror this morning. I discovered to my horror that I had a major breakout on my entire body. I don't know how since I basically took care of my acne problem about three years ago, and have been very good at maintaining my skin care regiment. I really hopes its just a side effect of the slight fever I had, otherwise it totally ruins my surprise for Esmiel this weekend ; ;
But that wasn't even the start of my problems, now people who I talk to on a daily basis in SL would know nothing about any of this, cause I don't like complaining to people about my problems, but anyway I don' t think I should talk about what happened on the blog anyway because it will probably just make it worse, but anyway I also felt strangely down and out of it all day long, losing the creative rush I have had all week, so I couldn't even get another article done for the magazine.
Not like that has any major impact since I have yet to hear from Linuxess Ewing nor Jax Qinan about what I had asked them to do, and its not like I asked them to do alot, heck I basically over-burdened myself if I did it to anybody with this thing, and I know I am a very creative and innovative person but I don't think I can do this all by myself, but I am going to wait another week or so before filing this in my ever-growing file of failed ideas and stuff.... Now that gets me even more depressed... :sighs: I guess I am going to need to set up a session with my therapist pretty soon at this rate....

Updated Info on First Issue of Bandant

O.K. so I have finally gotten some headway done on the first issue of Bandant Magazine. At this moment in the production schedule, the issue should be around 80 plus pages, with around one third of those set as advertisement space. Also I have blocked out all the articles and set up story board of sorts to show who is assigned which parts, if any parts are completed, and what still needs someone assigned to it. I kinda surprise Esmiel today, cause I made the story board above the roof of our house, so this 10 page long and 8 page high wall of blank and filled spaces sort of magically appeared overnight. I have started asking certain designers if they would like free ad space in the first issue, because I would never pay for spaces in a magazine that is brand new personally, but I just am kind of wary about being able to fill all the spaces if they were not free for the first issue. If after reading this you feel as if you would like a ad space for your company please IM me and I will give you a note card with more detailed information about our magazine. But please be aware that since I am offering them for free, that I am going to be more discriminating about who I give the spaces to, just wanted to give a fair warning.
So any who, I have been working my butt off spitting out pages and articles and graphics for the magazine, seeing as I have claimed at least half of the story board with my trademark favorite color pink, and I feel like displaying some of the fruits of my labor, but bear in mind that most of this like the photo layouts and the contents are not final, they are still going to be worked to fit the page layout I came up with, but I just felt like giving your eyes the honor of gazing upon them in their full glory, and not reduced and such to fit on a page for the magazine

Yay for stressing out my PC!

Okies so today I finally graduated my snapshot taking techniques from beginner to advanced, which basically means I maxed the quality-hell out of my graphics card. I was reading this one thing on how to take better snapshots, and it said to alter my nVidia card settings pertaining to image quality, so I just did what it said, max anti-aliasing, sure even though I have nooo idea what that does, antiroscroping or w/e, max it baby, mipmapping, map me to the max. One thing I understood was to make image quality extra high quality, that is such a no-brainer. but I still cant decide if it made THAT big of a improvement, because it sacrifices alot of performance for image quality but I really could not tell a major improvement in them but I will let you guys be the judge lol

BEFORE

AFTER

More Random Stuff

You: mine is from kat, she wanted to talk to me, said something about wonderful news
Esmiel Posthorn: oh cool wanna invite her over?
You: I am like omg she got knocked up...
You: LOL
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL

You: yeah but some fucktard might slip up
Esmiel Posthorn: well they're not going to be the most intelligent bunch of guys are they lol
You: omg the anti-skank leauge
You: anti-skank league
Esmiel Posthorn: O.o
You: the anti-dolphin organization
You: omg there is a group called Got an Issue? Here's a tissue
Esmiel Posthorn: OMG LOL
You: anti-asshats
You: anti barbie
Esmiel Posthorn: hahaha I'm searching now too
You: anti-melon coaltion
Esmiel Posthorn: give bush a wedgie
You: anti aging
You: anti-stupid people

You: did you read the label on my ass love?
Esmiel Posthorn: thats a tattoo
You: may cause uncontrolled loss of memory if enjoyed too much LOL

Nicholai Heita goes monkey balls crazy...

Aprikat Wildcat: what's a monkey ball?
Esmiel Posthorn: ummmm
You: a monkey's testicle

You: I love that word testes for some reason..

You: omg I was laughing and soda came out my nose!

You: never say testes while I am drinking...
Esmiel Posthorn: never say what? testes?

Aprikat Wildcat: the footrest is eating me!!!!
You: oh no
You: eshy get the shotgun
Esmiel Posthorn: yeah he gets hungry sometimes
Esmiel Posthorn: hmm? oh no guns allowed on the sim
Esmiel Posthorn: you're gonna die Kat, sorry, cos of the covenant you made

Esmiel Posthorn: oh its not a shotgun, silly. its a pair of uzis
You: ok get those
You: show
Aprikat Wildcat: bad chair!'
Esmiel Posthorn: i kinda like him, dont make me shoot him
Nicholai Heita throws a tampon at the chair
Esmiel Posthorn: why the fuck have you got those
You: dont ask why I have one
You: they make wonderful tree decorations
Aprikat Wildcat: you too hun...talk to you both later & yes they do
Esmiel Posthorn: urgh
Aprikat Wildcat: food coloring
You: pink tampons
You: so pretty

Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: hey!
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: this could go on for a loooong time
You: LOL Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: your on
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
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You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: shoe
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: soh
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
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You: show
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You: show
You: show
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You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
You: LOL
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
Esmiel Posthorn: hide
Esmiel Posthorn: ok
Esmiel Posthorn: i win
You: cause I felt silly
Esmiel Posthorn: haha you gotta get past the fear of looknig like a total idiot if you ever wanna do anything cool
Esmiel Posthorn: looking*
You: look its a bunch of hot naked boys in the sky
Esmiel Posthorn: oh where?!
You: show
Esmiel Posthorn: dammit
You: LOL
Esmiel Posthorn: I'm gonna go feed myself to the foot rest
You: awww no
You: who will stuff me each night D:
Esmiel Posthorn: well you put the pose balls on show, i just gotta do it
Esmiel Posthorn: RJ?
Esmiel Posthorn: ;D
You: hide
You: hell no
You: omg...
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL
Nicholai Heita screams at the images
You: omg I am traumatized now

Esmiel Posthorn shudders and runs over to the plant pot to puke in it
Esmiel Posthorn: sorry baby
You: hey not the plant use the newspaper!
Esmiel Posthorn: you want me to puke on the newspaper
You: how would you like someone puking on your bottom half?
Esmiel Posthorn: please dont say that, it is actually a fetish
You: ewwww you like that1
Nicholai Heita backs away
Esmiel Posthorn: LOL not one of mine! jeeeze
Esmiel Posthorn: i dont have any..
You: me...
Nicholai Heita giggles
Esmiel Posthorn: well yeah..
Esmiel Posthorn: i dont think we've ever done a 69 type thing before tonight have we... was fun :D
Nicholai Heita blushes hotly and says "yes it was..."
Esmiel Posthorn grins "why blush huh.."

Britney is back bitch! D:

Britney Spears finally came out with a new album, Blackout, and having been a fan of the butt-shaking beats and sexy tones of her songs like I'm a Slave 4 U, Toxic, and such, I just had to get it on iTunes, and I must say that it was worth it. This album is like a dancers dream, almost every song has a awesome beat to it, and I like how she has experimented with electronica, synthing her voice in Piece of Me, and I know how many people dismiss her, but I don't listen to them because this album is awesome, I definitely think you should go and get it ^^

Random Stuff from Chat logs D:

You: well when I fall asleep I fall asleep I mean like a rock
You: I've woken up to find my roomies took off my clothing before
Esmiel Posthorn: omg I would so kill them
Esmiel Posthorn: dont ever let me meet your roomies lol
You: okies
You: I'll tell them death awaits in Edinburgh

You: wb quickie mcfastfeet

You: I love this headset I feel like a professional IT consultant or something

You: I am a IT consultant in his underwear D:

IM: Zarac Ames: do you make man-thongs? :o

Esmiel Posthorn: yeah bewbs!

You: wth is christian japanese music?

Esmiel Posthorn: oh i say pants when something is bad

You: omg...did that truck just explode...oh its the TV LOL

You: my grammar p4wns yours

You: a bolt of static electricity went from my ass and hit my cat

You: no thanks lady I dont want to drown in your smelly pussy

You: yeah I would have freaked and like thrown a TV on it or something and let someone else clean it up

You: relog orgy

You: eshy stop hitting the angel
You: jebus will be mad at you


Gabe Semyorka: this is where kat is going to live i guess
You: she lives on a plane?

You: except that one down in that place
You: that one is scary fugly

Esmiel's Opinion

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Showing your true colors

I just finished reading this article on CNN, and I must say that I am absolutely appalled. To think that a church would sanction such a absolutely disrespectful action is mind-boggling, and they wonder why they are losing members. To go to one of our country's fallen hero's funeral with signs reading G-d Hates America and fags and such inflames me to such an extent, if I weren't trying to go into the political arena, I would stage a counter demonstration right here in front of the White House.
I think its about time that the groups of people who are always beaten upon by the government and the religious hate-mongers group together and stand up to these hate-mongers, and sometimes I am actually forced to admit to that terrible stereotype of gays is sometimes all too true. If a majority of them would stop drinking, partying, having promiscuous sex and all that, and focused that energy into fighting for what we as humans deserve things like this would happen a lot less.
I have also begun to lose faith in the entire people of America, for allowing the government to come this close to a theocracy, what ever happened to the separation of church and state, and here we have enormous donations from religious organizations to help pass laws that follow their beliefs. This just doesn't sit well with me.
Sorry for the rant, but this kind of stuff just really makes me mad, I cannot stand hatred...

ROFLMAO

I was just browsing the Resident's Answers area of the SL forums, getting my laughs from all the crazy things some people say there when I found this post in this thread The Offical SL Public Hysteria Thread and I am going to paste the actual post made by Raymond Figtree below, enjoy ;P

From Drudgereport.com:

ALLANA SIM — We now know something that we did not know before: When Hillary Clinton has a bad night, she really has a bad night.

In a debate against six Democratic opponents at The Forum Hangout here Tuesday, Clinton gave the worst performance of her entire campaign.

It was not just that her answer about whether illegal immigrants should be issued driver's licenses was at best incomprehensible and at worst misleading.

It was that for two hours she looked like Ruth, and her Xcite clit kept spamming the audience.

And when it was over, both the Barack Obama and John Edwards campaigns signaled that in the weeks ahead they intend to hammer home a simple message: Hillary Clinton is a clueless n00b.

And she gave them plenty of ammunition Tuesday night.

Asked whether she still agrees with New York Gov. Eliot Spitzer’s plan to give driver's licenses to illegal immigrants, Clinton triggered her Homer Simson gesture and said "mmmmmm, donuts".

But when Chris Dodd attacked the idea a moment later, Clinton quickly said: “I did not say "mmmmmm, donuts". I said "D'oh! Bring me the boy!".”

NBC’s Tim Russert, one of the debate moderators, jumped in and said to her: “You told (a) New Hampshire paper that it made a lot of sense. Do you support his plan?”

”You know, Tim,” Clinton replied, “I do. As soon as I get this shoe out of my ass.”

John Edwards immediately went for the jugular. “Unless I missed something,” he said, “Sen. Clinton said two different things in the course of about two minutes. America is looking for a president who will use the same Homer gesture, who will be consistent, who will be straight with them.”

Barack Obama added: “I was confused [by] Sen. Clinton's answer. I can't tell whether she was Homer Simpson or the fat dad from Family Guy. One of the things that we have to do in this platform is to be honest about the challenges that we face.”

Earlier, when Clinton was asked whether she had made one statement on Mainland tier publicly and a conflicting answer privately, she ducked the question, saying she believed in “landbaron responsibility.”

And when Russert asked her if she would make public certain communications between herself and Phillip Linden when she was first lady, she responded weakly: “Well, that’s not my decision to make.”

Perhaps just as bad was her general tone and demeanor. All of her opponents seemed passionate about one issue or another. But Clinton seemed largely emotionless and detached, often just mouthing rehearsed answers from her briefing book. It was almost as if she was a landbot.

True, she was relentlessly griefed all night. But she can’t claim that she was stabbed in the back. She was stabbed in the front.

“Who is honest? Who is sincere? Who has integrity?” Edwards asked and then provided the answer: Not Hillary33Babe Hax.

“She has not been truthful and clear,” Obama said at one point. "And her Xcite clit keeps IMing me."

Hillary Clinton will certainly live to fight another day. She still has a huge lead in the national polls, a good staff and a ton of Anshe L$10 furniture.

But, in the past, Clinton could always depend on her opponents to be ruthed at these debates. All she had to do was wave her particle glow stick to win.

Those days seem to be over.

My New Venture

Yes as you may have read on Esmiel's blog I have come up with a concept for a magazine called Bandant, and no its basically hot or sexy in French, *eye twitches towards Esmiel* and I put Gay Lifestyle Magazine under it in small letters. As of right now we are working on the first issue, which I hope will come out near the middle of November or end of December, seeing as right now the staff consists only of me, Esmiel, and Linuxess, and as of a recent personal problem she is sort of out of commission right now, which leaves me to do all the writing and graphics work for it, and wait out to flesh out concepts to the team, but I love creating things.
As for the general concept of what a gay lifestyle magazine in SL is, I want to make as close to what a real life magazine would be, without delving to far in RL things. Basically what I am hoping to and trying to achieve with this magazine is to bring SL and RL together a bit, to help integrate this so it can better our real lives so they can be more life the perfect exist stance in Second Life. But the general focus is on a more feminine and high-end approach, because I found most of the men's fashion mags in SL are either all about the mainstream preppy/metro-sexual look or about the grungy ripped punk look, I am trying to bridge those too and to bring a certain softness and such that isn't there.
The magazine will feature articles that deal with where are some of the best spots to go and see in SL, basic SL etiquette to help people get through the "n00b" stage faster, political and other issues affecting gays in the US,SL, and around the world, commentary on articles from the readers, interviews with the so-called "movers and shapers" of the gay SL community, introspects on SL relationships through one on one interviews, fashion reviews that try to match the trends occurring in the real fashion world each season, special erotic fiction that demonstrate how rich a tapestry of love can be woven in SL, and of course pin-ups of the models featured in each issue.
Yes I know that is a lot, but I feel if I am able to get the first issue out and into peoples hands, it will be able to be done, and as a incentive to help me out, here is the main photo page for the first issues erotic fiction called "The Maidservant" enjoy.

Mayan RP

Ok.. this is different from the Mayan Prince story I was writing using our emotes on the Esmiel blog.. but here it is, a hawt new story in its (almost) entirety.. only the ending is left off, but there isnt much plot development after the cut off point to be perfectly honest *LOL*

I hope you enjoy :3

[9:50] Nicholai Heita carefully brings a golden bowl filled with spring water to his lips, and take a sip, before dipping his fingers and sprinkling some on the stone floor
[9:51] Esmiel Posthorn sneaks up the steps of the temple, the guards all fast asleep or in their quarters. He ducks behind a pillar as he reaches the top of the staircase.
[9:52] Nicholai Heita sets the bowl down on the raised platform, then he reaches into a silver vessel filled with some oil, and he takes some on his finger tips and makes a line down his torso, then he marks the pillars with the oil
[9:53] Esmiel Posthorn peeks from behind the pillar, his eyes fixed on your slim, pale figure. He sneaks to the next column, hiding again.
[9:54] Nicholai Heita takes a circlet made out of jade and hammered gold, and he places it on the center of the raised platform, before he bends foreward dropping onto his knees, and he closes his eyes, his hands to either side as he chants softly
[9:56] Esmiel Posthorn watches your tail swing as your pert buttocks lower themselves as you kneel. He tenses himself, feeling his mind wander a little from his mission.. but he steels himself and moves a little closer in the shadows.
[9:58] Nicholai Heita slowly and sensually opens his eyes, his dark long lashes sweeping upwards, and he parts his lips, and they glisten in the fire, pink and supple as he softly says a few silent words, as he places his hands across his chest
[10:00] Esmiel Posthorn strains to hear your words but shakes his head thinking it's of no importance to his task. He creeps a little closer, back pressed to a column, when he scuffs his foot on a loose floor tile and makes a slight grunt as he falls against the pillar and steadies himself, breathing heavily.
[10:01] Nicholai Heita's head snaps to the side as he hears something, but he shrugs it off as he closes his eyes once more, drifting into a meditative state
[10:02] Esmiel Posthorn breathes a quick sigh of relief and tenses his muscles, clenching his fists as he repeats his mission over in his head, working out the steps in his mind. He braces himself against the pillar and prepares himself..
[10:03] Nicholai Heita stays completely still as he quietly meditates
[10:04] Esmiel Posthorn softly steps out from behind the column and places a hand gently over your mouth and wraps his other arm around your chest.
[10:04] Nicholai Heita's eyes snap open and he lets out a cry, muffled by your hand, and he squirms in your arms, his feet stomping down on yours
[10:05] Esmiel Posthorn tightens his grip on you and moves his feet out of the way as he whispers in your ear "I do not want to hurt you. Be still, this is important.."
[10:06] Nicholai Heita whimpers softly, his face blushing as he stops squirming, and he stays still
[10:07] Esmiel Posthorn holds your body tightly against his, and looks down into the reflection of our faces from the dish of water and he gasps softly, muttering.. "You're even more beautiful than the stories.."
[10:08] Nicholai Heita eyes widen as a deep blush graces his face, and he whimpers softly, before he suddenly twists his body, freeing himself from your grasp and he lets out a cry as he falls towards the edge of the stone platform
[10:10] Esmiel Posthorn, now facing you, grabs your wrists and holds them tightly, holding you in the air, frozen. He looks into your eyes and smirks.
[10:11] Nicholai Heita looks away blushing deeply, and he winces as his wrists strain to hold his body away from the sharp edge of the platform
[10:13] Esmiel Posthorn tugs sharply on your arms, sending your body into his, your small frame bouncing off of his and he wraps his arms tightly around your waist and looks down at your face.
[10:14] Nicholai Heita lets out a gasp, his soft slender body against your muscular frame, and he glances up at you, before looking down blushing deeply, he then opens his mouth and starts to scream a cry to his guards outside the temple
[10:15] Esmiel Posthorn silences your scream with a soft kiss and he relaxes his grip for a second as he looks into your eyes.
[10:15] Nicholai Heita eyes widen as he blushes hotly and he squirms a bit in your grasp, before he stops struggling and he whimpers softly
[10:18] Esmiel Posthorn pulls away from the kiss and blushes a little before whispering.."I am sorry I had to do this.. My name is Esmiel. I am from the rival tribe across the valley - To prove my manhood to my father, the king, I was set a task to capture you, the jewel of your tribe.. I am sorry we had to meet this way. It was not my choice.."
[10:19] Nicholai Heita looks down blushing deeply, and he remains silent as he stands there in your arms, and he says under his breath, "finish....your task then...."
[10:21] Esmiel Posthorn looks around quickly and nods "I have to take you to the temple in my own kingdom, and chain you to the table for my father to inspect.. You will not be harmed by me at all.."
[10:22] Nicholai Heita blushes deeply and he nods, before he drops a golden ring onto the stone floor, and looks down staring at his feet
[10:23] Esmiel Posthorn hears the sound of metal on stone and looks down at the floor.. "what was that..?"
[10:24] Nicholai Heita shrugs and he tries to squirm free one more time, his twisting causing his cloth covered groin to get pressed against your hands holding him and he gasps...
[10:26] Esmiel Posthorn smiles softly as he feels your member twitch under his touch and he rubs his palm on your crotch gently, looking into your eyes. He says softly "I dont have to take you back alive, you know. Dont struggle, accidents can happen.."
[10:27] Nicholai Heita closes his eyes and whimpers, gulping gently, and he stops struggling, and he says silently, "Then take your hands off from that area, and I will comply..."
[10:30] Esmiel Posthorn stops rubbing and smiles "You are my prisoner. You do as I say.. Not the other way around. But I will take my hands away only because I have until sunrise to get you to my goal.. and there is no time for this.." and he gropes you one more time before muttering "unfortunately.."
[10:31] Nicholai Heita opens his eyes wide as he lets out a soft yelp and he shudders in your grip, hissing under his breath.....
[10:33] Esmiel Posthorn runs his finger along one of your soft, furry ears and smiles "How curious.. I have not seen this before" and he pulls you towards him and lifts you off your feet.
[10:34] Nicholai Heita mews softly as he feels your finger stroke his ear, and then gasps as he feels you lift him off his feet
[10:35] Esmiel Posthorn grips you gently in his arms, holding you against his chest and he turns and walks towards the temple steps.
[10:36] Nicholai Heita wraps his arms around your neck blushing deeply, and he tries to flick off a toe-ring to hit one of the lazy guards
[10:37] Esmiel Posthorn just carries you right past the snoring guards, stopping at the temple steps and surveying the land below.. "Luckily it isn't far.. I wont have to rush."
[10:38] Nicholai Heita watches helplessly as the ring misses the guards and bounces down the temple steps
[10:38] Esmiel Posthorn carries you down the steps and off into the thick jungle..
[10:39] Nicholai Heita stays still as he watches the city dissappear into thick jungle

[10:41] Esmiel Posthorn navigates his way through the trees and across the river..

[10:43] Esmiel Posthorn comes to another river and stops "I need a drink, so I am going to put you down. Run and you will die out here, and I will die trying to find you so stay close..."
[10:43] Nicholai Heita nods and whimpers softly
[10:45] Esmiel Posthorn kneels by the river and cups his hands, dipping them into the cool water and taking a long, deep drink. He turns and asks "Are you thirsty..?"
[10:45] Nicholai Heita shakes his head softly
[10:46] Esmiel Posthorn climbs to his feet and sighs "I dont think I need to carry you.. you have legs.. *mutters* very pretty ones.."
[10:48] Nicholai Heita looks down blushing hotly as he hears your comment
[10:49] Esmiel Posthorn smiles "So.. can you walk? I think this whole thing will be over alot quicker that way.. even tho.. I have no desire to turn you in"
[10:50] Nicholai Heita nods softly as he looks down
[10:51] Esmiel Posthorn reaches out a hand and smiles warmly "Come.. I will lead you."
[10:51] Nicholai Heita blushes deeply as he gives you his trembling hand
[10:53] Esmiel Posthorn grips it tightly and leads the way across the river and through the trees, before stopping suddenly, his head tilted to one side..
[10:53] Nicholai Heita looks puzzled and he soflty says, "what is it?"
[10:56] Esmiel Posthorn looks around nervously.. "I'm not sure, but I thought I heard someone in the trees - " and he squeezes your hand tightly as a dark figure coated in warpaint and blood lands on the path before you. Esmiel grips your hand tightly and pulls you behind him, covering you as he gazes at the savage on the path..
[10:57] Nicholai Heita lets out a scream as he sees the man covered in blood, and he shakes softly as he stands behind you
[10:59] Esmiel Posthorn leans back and whispers "Run back the way we came.. he will not chase you, he wants a fight, not a meal.. Go and hide in the deserted village by the river we just crossed.. I will come get you once I have dealt with.. this.." and two more men drop from the trees behind the first.. ".. these.. things."
[11:01] Nicholai Heita steps out from behind you and shakes his head, and he stands still, his feet together as he closes his eyes, his hands placed in together in front of his face, and he opens his mouth whispering and chanting ancient words very softly, and a blue glow begins to surround him
[11:02] Esmiel Posthorn steps aside and shields his eyes as the glow becomes brighter..
[11:04] Nicholai Heita's body slowly lifts off the ground, his clothing and hair floating and fluttering from some unseen wind, and he finishes his chant and as he snaps his eyes open, a huge ball of energy shoots from his body and upon hitting the men, they are gone when it clears, he then stops glowing and his eyes close and he falls backwards, hitting the ground
[11:07] Esmiel Posthorn stares blankly for a moment before snapping back to reality. He crouches over your prone form and lifts you gently into his arms, muttering to himself "I can't take him home now.. his body needs rest, but I will be too late and fail my task if we wait for his recovery.. but otherwise.. he may die.." and he looks down at you in his arms and carries you back towards the village.
[11:08] Nicholai Heita chest rises and falls gently as he breathes shallowly.....
[11:09] Esmiel Posthorn tries the door of the first hut and finds it stuck fast, and he turns to the only other one, panicking slightly as your breath gets fainter..
[11:10] Esmiel Posthorn manages to force the door open with his shoulder and lays you gently down in the old hammock, amongst the tattered sheets and cushions.
[11:12] Esmiel Posthorn climbs in beside you and rests his palm on your brow, looking you over intently, still wondering his mind what just happened and how to fix you..
[11:14] Nicholai Heita's eyes slowly open, and they widen as he feels and sees you very close to him, and his face turns a soft shade of red as he blushes
[11:15] Esmiel Posthorn smiles with relief as he sees your eyes open and he sits back slightly "I.. you just.. what happened.. what aare you?" and he gazes at you, slightly afraid
[11:16] Nicholai Heita looks down and he whispers softly, "I am just what you said, the jewel of my people...."
[11:17] Esmiel Posthorn chuckles softly "Indeed you are. But now I have a problem.."
[11:17] Nicholai Heita looks down and he trembles as he says, "A....prr...problem?"
[11:19] Esmiel Posthorn sighs and nods "I will fail my task, because I brought you here to allow you to rest before I took you back to my father. But now the sun is nearly risen and we are too far from home. I failed my task to ensure you would survive..." and he blushes a little.
[11:20] Nicholai Heita shakes his head and he says a few words, and a feeling of renewed energy shoots through both our bodies...
[13:08] Esmiel Posthorn blinks and shudders slightly as he feels warm and strong again.. "What.. what was that..?"
[13:08] Nicholai Heita blushes and he says, "a little refresh spell"
[13:10] Esmiel Posthorn nods "Well.. I think it did more than that.. I feel like I could carry you all the way.. " and he looks at you, slightly intrigued but also afraid of your obvious powers
[13:11] Nicholai Heita blushes and looks down, before he says quietly, "You better hurry...."
[13:12] Esmiel Posthorn climbs out of the hammock and nods "Ok.. I will carry you to my kingdom.. unless you can run with me" he hesitates for a second, about to say more, then he shuts his mouth and offers his hand to you.
[13:13] Nicholai Heita takes your hand, his body trembling slightly as his head suddenly feels light, causing him to become dizzy for a moment
[13:14] Esmiel Posthorn catches you and holds you in his arms.. "Guess I'll carry you then.."
[13:15] Nicholai Heita blushes softly, looking away as your touch on his skin sends a tiny shiver down his spine
[13:15] Esmiel Posthorn's warm hands softly but firmly grip your smooth skin as he carries you out of the hut and back into the jungle..
[13:18] Esmiel Posthorn reaches the edge of the trees and looks out at the large, open-plan city before him. the sun twinkles on the horizon as he climbs the steps of the temple.
[13:18] Nicholai Heita looks around in awe at the city, blinking his eyes
[13:19] Esmiel Posthorn smiles "welcome to my father's citadel... one day it will all be mine. That is if I have passed my task.."
[13:19] Nicholai Heita nods and looks around silently, his eyes wide....
[13:22] Esmiel Posthorn points to the broken rock in the centre of the small room "This is the sacred stone we use as a table.. many, many sacrifices have been performed on this rock.." and he sets you gently down onto your feet and smiles.
[13:22] Nicholai Heita eye's the stone with fear in his eyes as his body trembles
[13:25] Esmiel Posthorn says quickly and softly "I will be around when my father comes in the morning.. he has said he will not harm you, but I do not trust the man's high priest who will also be here. I will make sure they do you no harm when they inspect you". He takes your hands and binds them loosely together infront of you.
[13:26] Nicholai Heita lets out soft whimper as he feels you take his hands and bind them together and he trembles softly...
[13:28] Esmiel Posthorn brushes his cheek against yours softly as he lifts you up and sits you on the rock. "Lay back, I need to chain your feet and neck to this thing.." He pushes your shoulders gently backwards..
[13:29] Nicholai Heita whimpers softly as he feels your cheek brush against his, and he lets out a cry as he feels you push him back against the rock
[13:32] Esmiel Posthorn hurriedly chains your feet together and then to the rock, before placing a thin steel collar around your neck and clamping it shut, chaining the ring on it to a loop on the table. He sighs softly and strokes your cheek with his fingertips "I am sorry. I will be executed as soon as my father walks in if you are not in this position.."
[13:33] Nicholai Heita blushes as he realizes his vunerable position and he nods, his body trembling softly at your gentle touch
[13:35] Esmiel Posthorn runs a finger down your chest and winks at you "Dont worry.. it will be over very quickly.." and he steps back into the shadows as the sun rises above the horizon and there is the sound of several people climbing the temple stairs
[13:36] Nicholai Heita lets out a soft gasp as he feels your finger run down his chest, and he shakes softly as he hears the sound of footsteps
[13:39] Esmiel Posthorn whispers "Do not be afraid.." and then goes silent and bows very low as three men enter the room. The first is the king, resplendant in his golden robes and jade headress. Behind him is the high priest, gnarled body covered in runic tattoos and scars. The last man waits by the door, standing at least 6 inches taller and wider than Esmiel, wearing a full jaguar fur and carrying a large obsydian bladed axe. Esmiel eyes him with some degree of fear and stands up straight as the two older men approach the table.
[13:42] Nicholai Heita watches as one of the men approach him, and he lets out a scream as one roughly takes his chin in their hand and rips his clothing off his body, and he trembles, tears in his eyes as they whisper something in his ear, their rough calloused hands running over his body, and he cries for them to stop
[13:43] Esmiel Posthorn steps forwards and yells at them "What are you doing?!" but he is silenced by a hefty punch in the stomach from the large guard. Winded, he drops to his knees and draws a small dagger, hiding it in his palm..
[13:44] Nicholai Heita struggles and screams as he feels one of them lift his legs, parting them, and he bites his lower lip as he hears them laugh, and he screams as he hears the rustling of clothing
[13:48] Esmiel Posthorn closes his eyes and tenses himself, ignoring the pain in his chest and stomach. He rolls between the guard's legs and jumps onto his back, stabbing him with the small blade, right in the throat, puncturing his windpipe. Blood sprays across the wall and the guard drops, choking and spluttering in a crumpled heap on the floor. Esmiel picks up the axe from his hands and turns to face his father and the priest. "Leave him. You promised you would not hurt him, but I see your true natures now. You disgust me"
[13:49] Nicholai Heita closes his eyes and cries, his body trembling, and he shivers as he feels warm blood droplets land on his naked skin
[13:53] Esmiel Posthorn points at his father "You cannot even keep a promise to your son, how can you lead these people? You have a sickness for which there is no cure, father. Go and do not come back." Esmiel then looks at the priest, his belt unbuckled and his hand in his robes. "You are not worthy of this" he says simply and swings the axe upwards into the man's chest.
[13:54] Nicholai Heita cries and gags as blood spurts out, covering his skin, and the man falls foreward landing on him, and he squirms to get the body off
[13:59] Esmiel Posthorn pushes the lifeless body, its face frozen in shock and fear, off of the table and he smiles softly as his father turns and flees from the room, tripping up halfway down the steps and falling to the bottom. Esmiel pulls off the chains and rope holding you and lifts you into his arms, cradling you. He looks down at the bodies and shakes his head "Such a waste of my energy." He rips off a piece of his silk and dabs at the blood on your face and chest "I am sorry. I will take you back to your people and compensate you for this.."
[14:00] Nicholai Heita trembles and blushes deeply as he feels your hands on his naked skin, and he wraps his arms around your neck
[14:02] Esmiel Posthorn looks around and sighs "I guess this place is mine sooner than I imagined it would be.. I am not ready to lead these people - I am barely a man.." and he looks down at his feet.
14:03] Nicholai Heita stands back, his naked body golden in the morning sun, and he blushes hotly as he says, "Every ruler needs a partner..."
[14:04] Esmiel Posthorn's eyes widen.. "You have seen what I can do, how angry I can get.. and what I have done to you this night.. and you would still be with me?"
[14:05] Nicholai Heita looks down blushing more and he nods, saying in his soft sweet voice, "Your heart is in the right place..."
[14:07] Esmiel Posthorn smiles softly and steps a little closer, running his hands over your bare shoulders and he looks deep into your eyes. "I know it will be when you are a part of it.."
[14:08] Nicholai Heita lets out a soft mew, your touch on his bare skin sending tiny shivers down his spine, and he closes his eyes...
[14:09] Esmiel Posthorn runs his fingers backwards through your hair, stroking your ears softly as he leans his face closer to yours, smiling.. "Perhaps we should go somewhere with less corpses.."
[14:09] Nicholai Heita blushes hotly and he nods
[14:10] Esmiel Posthorn takes your hand and leads you out the sidedoor of the temple, down the steps and into the city.
[14:11] Nicholai Heita tries to cover his naked body...
[14:12] Esmiel Posthorn smiles "Lucky everyone is asleep.." and he rips a piece of cloth from a nearby bundle of sheets and wraps it around you
[14:13] Nicholai Heita blushes and lets out a soft mew as he feels your fingers graze the bare skin on his hips
[14:15] Esmiel Posthorn's fingers linger for a second, gently stroking your skin, before he composes himself and leads you by the hand across the city, through dark streets and buildings, past patrols of guards..
[14:16] Nicholai Heita purrs softly, his face turning red as he feels your fingers stroke his skin, the touch sending tiny shivers up his spine
[14:18] Esmiel Posthorn turns to you and smiles "I am not sure what to do.. We could go back to my palace - but I think that will be dangerous, seeing as my younger brothers and my father's guards will be there.. or we can find a place to hide for some time, until things are ready for us to return..."
[14:19] Nicholai Heita looks down and he softly says, "We should go to your palace and claim the throne after spending the day together..." and he blushes hotly
[14:22] Esmiel Posthorn smiles shyly and looks at you through his long, silky fringe. He blushes as he nods and thinks of a suitable place to go to...

[14:25] Nicholai Heita lets the piece of clothing covering him to flutter to the ground as you lead him to the clearing of a abandoned summer palace
[14:27] Esmiel Posthorn hurries towards the palace, leading you by the hand, smiling as he sees the clothing fall to the ground. He opens the door and pulls you inside into his waiting arms..
[14:28] Nicholai Heita whimpers and gasps as he feels you pull his naked body into your arms, the feeling of your skin against his prompts a lustful purr to come from his soft supple lips
[14:31] Esmiel Posthorn pushes you gently up against the wall and kisses your lips passionately, holding you tightly in his arms
[14:32] Nicholai Heita lets out a soft moan, his body shuddering as he feels himself pressed to the wall, and he guides your hand carefully until the touch the soft smooth skin of his buttocks....

and thats it... hope you liked it ^^

Esmiel <3

I am still here as well...

Yeah I know its been a few months since anything has been posted here, but really I doubt anybody really reads this, so my way of thinking is then why bother...and if anyone does read this then lemme give you a long over-due update on what has been going on..

At the time of my last post, I was heavily involved in a development project of a residential sim, which I am still working on, but not as much since classes started up last month. Also around the end of June I began a new music project, but that isn't very important. The first week of August I started slipping in my battle with my chronic depression, often not even caring enough to take care of myself, but this happens infrequently, its just something that triggers it, which I have no idea exactly what it is, so that also took a toll on me, I lost about 20 pounds that month, which is bad since I don't weigh much to begin with, and then the fall semester started in September, with my schedule being yet again crazy and overloaded with courses, and lucky me I get early morning classes three times a week.
But things got really bad the last two weeks of the month, I really don't want to go into details, but I started babysitting for a family friend on Mondays, since my classes only go to 1pm on that day, and something really bad happened with the older brother of the boy I was looking after, I don't really feel like going into it, but if Eshy wants to then he can, but after that I had thoughts of killing myself, and cried myself to sleep for the rest of the week, and I am still kind of reeling from it, so I am not really feeling well enough to restart this blog, its getting closer to the holidays, and the ever-returning feeling of loneliness and stuff has begun to set in once again, so don't really expect any posts until the new year...

Nicholai...

Yeah I'm still here

Umm.. hi.. this blog hasn't seen much activity or original content recently. There are a few reasons...

1) I been putting all my stuff up on my own blog.
2) We both been busy as hell, no kidding. Nicholai especially, he's had all kinds of shit goin on so we haven't spent much time together - so we haven't had anything happen thats worth posting about on here.
3) I doubt anybody reads this one anyways so why bother? *LOL*

Maybe we'll work something out soon. I'll put the Elven RP story up on here exclusively if I get round to it and apart from that... well... *shrugs* we'll see. My Kitten is always stuffed with ideas - he'll fix it. If he has time.

Eshy ^^

Angels - Part 5

ANGELS - PART 5

Esmiel runs his warm, wet finger down Nicholai’s spine and presses it against his hole, rubbing and probing gently as he slides it in, gently stretching the angel’s perfect, beautiful ass around it. Nicholai lets out a soft cry as he feels Esmiel’s finger slip into him, and his hand clenches around the dark one’s cock as he moans his name, "Ahhh...Eshy.."

Smiling, Esmiel kisses Nicholai softly on the lips... "It gets better..." he whispers as his finger nudges the blonde angel’s gland, the movement stretching him slightly further, and Esmiel’s other hand takes a hold of Nicholai’s shaft and strokes it gently and teasingly. The little angel lets out a trembling cry as he feels the finger against his gland, and his cock begins to drip, as his hand fumblingly rubs at Esmiel’s cock, both angel’s breathing getting heavier and their bodies developing a sheen of glistening sweat.

Esmiel pushes his finger deeper into Nicholai’s ass, stretching and preparing him as much as possible before pulling it out and gently rolling on top of the angel, pressing Nicholai’s body down into the pillows as he gets down on his knees between the blushing angel’s legs and looks into his eyes, Esmiel’s own cold blue ones aflame with passion and desire.

Nicholai’s deep blue eyes stare back, full of trust and love, and Esmiel runs his fingers through the feathers in the angel’s soft white wings as he leans over him, the head of his cock rubbing against Nicholai’s entrance. The dark angel leans forward and kisses Nicholai gently as he rests the tip of his member on the angel’s rim and whispers “This is it… what we have both been missing so long… are you ready?”

Nicholai’s body shudders as he nods, closing his eyes and whimpering as he feels the warm, wet cock pressed against his entrance.

Esmiel slides the tip of his member into Nicholai very slowly, inch by inch pushing into him, giving the angel time to adjust and he stops as he reaches his hilt and breathes heavily as he leans in and kisses Nicholai deeply. Nicholai closes his eyes and winces, small tears escaping from below his lids as he feels Esmiel enter him, stretching him, then the pain turns to pleasure as he moans, feeling the dark angel fill him completely, and he gasps opening his mouth as he moves his hips gently.

Esmiel kisses the angel’s cheeks and reaches down with a hand, stroking his member gently as he begins to thrust into him slowly, his body rubbing against Nicholai’s, his dark wings stiff and spread.

Nicholai lets out a soft cry as he feels Esmiel pumping into him, and the hands stroking him become too much, as he cries out the dark angel’s name as his cock shoots his pure cum, his body shuddering, his ass clenching tightly, “Ahhh! Eshy!”

Esmiel groans as he feels himself tense and shudder and he shoots his seed deep into Nicholai, filling his hole with warm cum as he breathes heavily and collapses against the angel, his wings folding down and embracing him tightly.

Nicholai looks up into Esmiel’s eyes through his tousled blonde fringe, a serene smile on his face as he whispers, "I love you"

Esmiel looks back at Nicholai, the fires cool and mellow in his eyes and he sighs, "I love you too" and he kisses the angel’s lips, smiling softly…

Hope you enjoyed the story and I'll be 'writing' a new one very soon so stay tuned. Some Elven RP on its way too :D

Eshy ^^

Yay! Elves!

Nicholai Heita d'Chantuille, Crown Prince of the Woodland Elves

A sweet young prince who has been groomed for marriage, kept safely hidden within the castle walls. His flawless beauty and trusting nature and naivety have gotten him into dangerous situations after he has escaped the castle and wandered into the magical forest on his own several times. Just coming of age, the young prince has a great deal to learn about the world outside and making sure he is safe on his adventures is a tough job indeed. For this reason, his father, the High King of the Elves, has charged his best soldier with the duty of guarding the prince day and night. The Prince clearly admires and fears this strong, handsome warrior. But he makes Nicholai feel safe and secure and the young prince loves him for that...

Esmiel Posthorn, Royal Elven Guard to Prince Nicholai

Ex-Captain of the Royal Guard of King d'Chantuille, trained in sword play and one-time assassin, Esmiel's world has been full of nothing but pain and death for decades; He has seen and done more than most elves twice his age, and his maturity and quietness hide the fact that, in elven terms at least, he is barely an adult. His new duty is to guard the King's precious son, Prince Nicholai, and Esmiel welcomes this change of pace. It may be a little slower than the battles he is used to, but at least he gets to spend time in the company of one so beautiful, one that he clearly adores...

Who knows what exciting adventures they will get up to? You can bet there will be loads of opportunities for some damn good RP tho ;D

Eshy ^^

Angels - Part 4

Ok... this is the moment where it turns from romance into full-on hardcore erotica, and I hope I am as good at writing this as the previous parts... If you dont like material of a graphic sexual nature, don't read this. But of course... thats probably the main reason you've carried on reading huh? :P

Enjoy!

ANGELS - PART 4

As Esmiel leans in and passionately kisses him, Nicholai’s eyes widen and he gasps, stuttering “Eshy… what… is this feeling…” and Esmiel smiles softly and replies “As love is the feeling of your heart and soul, this is the physical feeling of love… and when all three are combined with another being, it is the greatest thing in all of creation… and I want to share that feeling with you…”

Nicholai gasps and moans softly, “Oh, Eshy…”, as Esmiel reaches down and places a hand on the angel’s member and starts to stroke it gently as he leans in and kisses his neck and shoulders, his lips caressing the soft, perfect skin and Esmiel buries his face in Nicholai’s shoulder, breathing in the scent he has missed so much. Nicholai closes his eyes and his breath hitches, as he experiences this wonderful new feeling, and he falls forwards against Esmiel, blushing sheepishly and mumbling softly, “weak knees…”

Esmiel smiles softly as he says "Come… I will lay you down so that you can relax and let the pleasure take you..." and he lays Nicholai down on the warm soft rug and removes his own silks and belts and he lies down beside the angel and takes him in his arms. Nicholai gasps and blushes at the sight of Esmiel’s naked muscular form, and his body trembles, as he feels the dark angel’s naked skin against his.

Esmiel holds the little angel in his arms, his hands moving across Nicholai’s skin, fingers gliding and caressing him all over, stroking and touching the angel lovingly. Nicholai sighs and shudders as he feels himself harden, and he relishes in the new feeling, pressing his head against Esmiel’s chest as the dark one takes Nicholai’s hand in his and places it on his growing member, his own hands tenderly stroking the angel’s shaft, their lips locked together as they kiss.

Nicholai looks at Esmiel, as his fingers delicately trace the outline of the dark angel’s growing member, and he asks softly, "what should I do?" and Esmiel simply replies "Whatever comes to you, as we lay together... you do it... follow your emotion and gut, and it will be raw and beautiful" and he moves his hand round behind Nicholai, rubbing his fingers over the soft, round cheeks of the angel’s butt and down between them lightly. Nicholai lets out a soft moan as he feels the hands on his butt, and he teasingly moves his fingertips up Esmiel’s shaft, tracing them around his head, then feeling something wet he takes some with his finger and brings it to his face to examine..."is this..."

Esmiel looks at Nicholai and nods "Yes… this is my... my seed..." and he blushes slightly as he reaches his hand lower, rubbing his finger over the angel’s entrance, as his eyes watch Nicholai’s closely, lost in their depth and beauty.

Nicholai closes his eyes as he places his finger in his mouth, and he lets out a moan as he feels the dark angel’s finger rubbing against his entrance, and he whimpers "oh... that feels... good..."

Esmiel brings his finger to the angel’s lips and whispers softly “moisten it and I can make it feel even better…” as he slips the finger into Nicholai’s mouth, the angel sucking on it gently, and his hot wet tongue circles around it. His hand wraps around Esmiel’s cock, rubbing it slowly…

There is one last episode after this, where the story reaches it's climax *harhar*... and then... I have another story to begin for you...

Eshy ^^

Angels Part 3

Apologies for the lateness, but I hope it is worth the wait for you. As I write this, I read back over the chat logs and edit them, keeping as much dialogue intact as possible, only editing it for grammar. I still can't believe we came up with this stuff off the top of our heads. I surprise myself with my romantic bullshit, and I am nothing like that in RL... but then again, situations like this rarely arise there.

ANGELS - PART 3

The dark angel looks into the blonde’s eyes and says softly, “You bring love to all, including me, at last… but you have never made love? Never felt the raw joy and beauty of being together with a love, being at one with them? I can say I have… a very long time ago… but that is forgotten now”. The angel’s soft cheeks flush a dark red and he shakes his head, saying, “I am the purest of angels…”

The dark one pulls him closer and smiles, “Yes, you are… warm like the fires of the sun, but soft like the clouds that shield it, and pure as the rain that falls from them…” and he gently presses his lips to the angel’s, who moans softly as his smooth, untouched skin gently brushes against the dark one’s. The blonde one looks up and his eyes glow as something clicks in his head and he stutters, “You are… you’re… you’re Esmiel…” as a look of confusion passes across his face. The dark one looks at him sharply, “How do you know? My name… it is lost. Nobody cares to know it. My name ended the day I did, when I lost everything…” and he looks down, frowning and puzzled.

The blonde one looks up at Esmiel and whispers, “I was little, and you were playing with me when they took you… I remember now”. Esmiel looks back and sighs, “I have no memory of it - all I can remember is the pain - but your eyes… they are somehow familiar. I know you, I am sure… but your name… I cannot remember it…” and he trails off, looking down, his body feeling weak and limp. The angel looks at Esmiel and moves under his body, supporting him, and he whispers, "Nicholai..."

Esmiel looks up and smiles happily, light and joy in his eyes as his body stands straight and upright once more and he says excitedly, "My… my... Nicholai… I have missed you all this time without knowing it… that is what I have been searching for… you..." and he runs his fingers through Nicholai’s wings and kisses his forehead before pressing his cold, pale lips to Nicholai’s soft pink ones.

Nicholai feels tears stream down his face as he closes his eyes, losing himself in Esmiel’s touches and kisses....

Esmiel holds Nicholai’s body close to his, clutching him tightly as he wraps his wings around Nicholai, sighing and crying happily into his hair. He takes Nicholai’s face in his hands and kisses it all over, his sparkling eyes fixed on the angel’s.

Nicholai runs a hand down his velvet soft body, then with a snap, his only covering falls away, revealing his glowing and bare body, his eyes looking into Esmiel’s as tears stream down his face, "I... I... love you... Eshy...” Esmiel looks down at the angel’s bare body and his eyes glow softly with cold blue flame as he runs his hands down Nicholai’s sides and rests them on his butt, holding it gently, pulling Nicholai closer to him as he kisses his lips, his raw passion flowing between them and he looks into Nicholai’s eyes "I love you too… Nicholai..." he says with a warm smile.

Hopefully the next installment will be available friday ;D

Eshy ^^

Angels Part 2

ANGELS - PART 2

The blonde one gasps softly as his body glows and a brilliant burst of white light surrounds him, his body warming to the touch and he whispers, “I… want… you to… love… me”.

The dark angel feels his cold body warm and soften in the glow, his icy cheeks becoming hot and flushed as he leans in closer, "Then… I can finally love… I can give my love to someone freely..." and he kisses the angel’s lips again, deeper and longer as he feels himself fill with light from the other’s body.

The angel’s lips part in a gasp and he moans, his body shuddering as the light intensifies. The dark angel slips his tongue into the other’s mouth, his hand gripping the angel’s leg as his other hand’s fingers run through the angel’s long, blonde locks. The dark one’s kiss is long and deep as he absorbs the warmth and the aura of darkness around him fades away.

The angel’s body trembles and he whimpers softly, his light glowing brightly “Where… do you… live?” The dark one looks down and sighs “I have no home, I wander the hills and valleys and dark places of the land, alone, searching for… something…” and he looks into the angel’s eyes, “Where do you live…”

The angel stares back says, “Down there, on an island, I am there when I am required to be down here”

The dark one strokes the angel’s wings softly as he peers through the early morning haze and he turns his head and says quietly, “All this time, you have been here, and I haven’t sensed or seen you once… and neither, it seems, have the others” and he looks up and down the angel’s body, his face fearful, “We should go to your home… can we…”

The little blonde angel nods as he feels the sinister darkness and shadow of the other fallen ones grow near, “Hurry… please…”

The dark angel clutches him to his chest as he beats his dark, sooty wings and takes off easily and lightly, flying quickly to the East, into the rising sun and he lands softly and safely on the small island in the middle of a deep blue lake, the water sparkling with gold-tipped waves as the cool breeze blows gently across the surface.

The dark one holds the angel in his arms and looks him up and down, saying, “Are you ok? They did not sense you…” and the blonde one nods simply as strong arms lower him to the floor, his bare toes gripping the loose sand as he stands and he looks up into the dark one’s eyes and whispers quietly, “What do we do now…”

Part 3 will be released next friday...

Eshy ^^

Angels

This is a little thing I am writing, using chat logs as a base. All the speech is from an RP session we did, and I have fleshed out the actions we took with some descriptions. I know its not brilliant but I enjoy writing it and I hope you enjoy reading it. I am going to be posting this on the Esmiel blog as well. This is the first page in what will be a 4 or 5 page story. It's called simply 'Angels'.

ANGELS - PART 1.

The blonde, slender figure sits up and rubs his head, stretching his pure white feathered wings. “Oh… Did I fall…?” he says softly, “How strange”. He looks around at the cold stone floor in the grey pre-dawn light and shivers, wrapping his arms around himself.

A shadow looms over him and he exclaims, “Oh my!”, as a dark figure leans down and gathers him up into strong arms and says quietly, “Are you ok?”

“What are you doing?!” cries the angel, looking up with big blue eyes.

He stares back unblinkingly. “I am checking to see if you are hurt”.

“But you are a dark angel… and…” he blushes hotly, “I am an angel…”

The dark one smiles softly, “Yes, I am… and yes, yes you are.”

“Then aren’t you going to ravish me?” the angel says, his eyes wide with fear, his body beginning to shake and tremble. The dark one says softly, "Why are you shaking? Are you afraid of me? Everyone is always afraid of me", and he says very, very quietly, "and I am always alone…"

The blond one looks up at him with sad blue eyes, and he looks back saying, “I have somewhere I want to take you. Something I want to show you. Don’t be afraid, please”.

He beats his black, ragged wings and rises slowly into the air, gathering speed as he climbs and the little blond one clutches to his chest tightly and gasps “How do you fly so fast?” as the cold wind whips and snaps at his soft skin.

They land on a rocky outcrop on the side of a mountain, facing the East, just as dawn breaks, the soft golden rays of sunlight cutting across the pale pink sky. “Where… where are we?” the angel asks quietly.

“See the sun, in the heavens… it is beautiful, like you… but I cannot touch it, I cannot be near it… So I come here when it is rising so I can be close to its warmth and beauty for a few moments of the day… but holding you… It gives me the same feeling - that is what I wanted to show you, to tell you.”

The blonde one looks down crying softly, "Why are you saying such things to me, is it some sick joke or pleasure you get..."

The dark one looks at him sadly, and whispers, "I don't play games, and I don't joke. I am not sick or twisted. I made a mistake once and have been punished for it, with no hope of redemption. I wanted to touch the sun, but I am never able to and you are the closest I can get…"

The angel’s lower lip trembles, and he lets out a soft cry, "Touch me... I have been cursed to help others find love but not find it myself... kiss me please... I don’t care it hurts so much..."

The dark one looks at him, his eyes wide and says "Oh… I… I couldn't... I can't... I am not like that... I long for it so much… but… but I can't…" and his hand begins to stroke the angel’s thigh softly as he moves his lips closer. The angel’s eyes widen and his lower lip trembles softly, "You can take and touch, love freely.....you are so lucky......" and he feels his face move closer to the dark angel’s. The dark one moves his lips even closer so they are barely touching and whispers… "Yes, I can love freely… but nobody has ever let me love them... let me touch them.." and he very, very softly pushes his cold lips to the angel’s and gives him the gentlest of kisses.

I might make this weekly so Part 2 will be next sunday. Comments/feelings/opinions are more than welcome :)

Eshy ^^