The first time we met.....oh gosh it seems like it happened years ago, but then again lots of things seem faded with the haze of my short memory span, that is why chat logs were created lol.... but we met way before I learned about chat logging, so alas the exact words exchanged are lost to history....But that moment is not lost, I think about it all the time, as I look back now I find it was the best thing that ever happened to me in Second Life and in some ways my real life....
At the time I met him I had been in SL for about almost a month or so, and was struggling to find myself after having gone through a really awful relationship that made my first few days/weeks on SL a very dark and unhappy time.. I was the kajirus (male Gorean slave) of Master ReoDominus Commander, but I had only entered into Gor due to the confusing circumstances of my first relationship, I still do not understand now how or why I decided to become a slave, because nothing in my past has pointed to me becoming one, I am a very opinionated and free-spirited person, who is a zealous supporter and advocate of human rights...go figure lol..
But the night I met him at the Blue Boy Club in Apollo, my Master had just went to bed, and I was being flirty and such, and the one thing I remember clearly is giving him a kiss before I went to bed, and that kiss would mark the beginning of a long, loving, and sometimes risque relationship.
I didn't realize it at the time but the boy I had kissed on a whim would become the most loved and closest person to me in SL, someone who I never lied to, opened my heart, and came to love with everything I am, and as I finish this entry, tears come to my eyes as I think back to all the wonderful memories I have had with him since that fateful night at the club, and I smile thinking of all the wonderful memories we have yet to make and will make in the future.
I leave you all on this note, listen to your heart, don't ignore it and keep on with something you know inside you doesn't make you happy, don't be afraid to hurt others, because you can make everyone you love happy, but you can't make them and yourself happy if you try to put them before you, follow what you feel, and when you find that place, hold onto it and never let it go....
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I remember the very, very first time I saw you. I said 'Wow, Nicholai you're as cute as a button'.. or something very similar.. definitely used that phrase :) It was the next time you saw me, you gave me that first, wonderful kiss.
Love you so much, Kitten... I never stop thinking about you ^^
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